The Reluctant Mermaid

one woman unwilling to swim in the same direction as the others

6/16/12

trying to put things to rest




I've spent the last 2 weeks discovering  a buried treasure that I left neglected for years. 
 I uploaded 2 years of our life in photos and videos onto a website and then had amnesia...
 finding them again was like opening up a floodgate of emotion.  
Every night I put the kids to bed and spend an hour or two 
watching every video,  
or  gazing at every photo.
It made me realize something.  
In all the sadness and loss that I've experienced... at some point, I'm going to have to put things to rest. 
 I thought I already did. But then I didn't.  
Then I thought I did again,only to realize that it was still there haunting me. 
 I truly believed that I had to "get over it" but now I realize that "get over it" 
and "get through it" are two completely different things.  
So, I'll just do the best I can to put certain parts of it to rest.  
There may be times that those parts wake up for a while but I can always put them back to rest if I need to.  
Shhhhh..... baby's sleeping.

2 comments:

jill said...

Very sweet!!! At different times something will remind us of our past pains, but learning that it is the past and the future holds many new treasures.

Love ya and BIG hugs~ Jill : )

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