I'm frozen right now. I'm not cold- I'm just stuck, frozen, unable to move my thoughts forward.
I'm coming off a high from my super successful event, where I got nothing but praise and complements for all the hard work I did,
But the moment happened this morning, one that made a dreaded rush wash over me and render me frozen.
What was it? What was the moment?
It was the moment I walked by a mirror. I saw my mother in that mirror. Now I'm frozen.
I have always feared looking like her because looking like her means that every time I see myself in the mirror- I see her.
I've gained a tremendous amount of weight and now my fear is coming true- I saw her today... in the mirror.
Sometimes I want to just fade away. Sometimes I want to cling to everything. It's a struggle.